Onto Another Train

I alighted another train

They rejoice hands in hands 

Welcom gestures on all faces

Yet I turn around and not see my dearests

 

Sometimes I feel so alone

But deep inside I know it will not be long

For they will come along

I continue to pray and long

 

For them to be saved and set free

And be united in eternity

His love will persist

They will one day see

 

So close and yet so far

But deep down in my heart

I know that we will not part

As our faith is in par

 

Do not fear but hold my hands

As we must board the same train

Just relax and board the same train

To where we belong….

   

 

 

 

 

 

2nd attempt

The feeling brewed and I made some changes to the first attempt. It wasn’t what I anticipated but I’ll try harder next time 🙂

 

Pictureless, Priceless, Perfect memory

I’ve been thinking about scrappin this theme for a long time. Finally I have something visual to enjoy looking at while day dreaming of him. I strongly believe I’ll make more of this in the future whenever I feel the strong urge for his presence again. One is just so not enough. There are still alot of words and feelings I want to pour out onto these nice pretty papers which are the only ways for me to acknowledge that you are in heaven as beautiful as the papers I have with me. But I strongly believe that you are in the great worthy hands of God. I love you Dawson.

 

Women of Destiny

The talk on the two consecutive nights were truly fruitful. Really worth me giving up going to the Miri Jazz Festival. It was like drinking from the fire hydrant. If I am to share with my fellow sisters about what I have learnt, it’s going to stretch out throughout the night. I am going to order the CDs ones they are ready. One of the highlights was having a VISION. Having a positive vision will guard ourselves vigilantly against attack. Without vision, people perish. Some people go through their life with the rear view window as large as the windshield, when a compelling vision for the future is so crucial to us. That left me contemplating on my very own VISION….a newer version that is. I am growing old every second and knowing that I can’t do anything about it left me desperate more than ever to start accomplishing my visions! Exercising patience is not any easier. I use a journal to ensure I do not derail from what I have planned for the day. But having disciplines are not enough. I just learnt the fact and now its already mid 2008! Its not time to bail out though. Another important note I will ponder on is that our purpose decides our potential and not vice versa. With that, I trashed most of my plans and remade new ones. This intertwines with the vision thinggy of course. I felt lighter now.   

Women of Destiny glided off the runway very smoothly. A round of applause to everyone who involved to make it so welcoming. Some worked throughout day and night. I am glad that I could contribute in the photo shoots for the standing banners, involved abit in the decoration, creating the invitation card layouts and was the massaging crew among the rest. I hope many women were touched. My heart goes out to the women out there. I rubbed my shoulders with some women who toiled their hands to bring up the family single handedly. Some were so brave and spiritually contented and guarded. So many were gifted with different abilities. Cooking is one! Women are wonderfully made. Oh, and the ice breaker games for the two nights were so much fun and FUNNY. 

Some shoots I requested for while the pro photographers were idle for awhile in between the photo shoot at Vic’s nicely decorated hehe.

  

Everything falls into a nice great plan. The next day wasMother’s Day. A family picture was taken on the day. Mothers (biological and in-law), I truly love you and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. No words can describe. I long for the day my son will start telling me he loves me not only on Mother’s Day but on also any other days. Gosh, there it goes, impatient again.

There was a storm that very night. It was like the scenes from The Day after Tomorrow. I have never seen coconut trees bend so much. What is happening to the weather! I Missed out my dinner with my mum. But I can make everyday a Mother’s Day if I want to ^^. Have plans to visit her tomorrow.

Slow down and feel

I lost touch of the artistic world … almost. I recall all the things I tried to beautify out of left over and used present papers, paper bags, used ribbons and etc. My mum used to call me the rubbish collector. I even collected the left over yellow papers after the stickers were peeled out. A sticker booklet mum bought me when I was in primary three still exist and inside the booklet, all the stickers were peeled off.

I had a passion for art. I liked to draw, paint, design, and I indulged in chinese calligraphy and piano. See all the verbs in past tense? The fast pace lifestyle, long hours and pressure from work worn me out at the end of the day that I slowly withdrawn from doing what I desired to do. Anything that was not making money, not creating income or was time consuming no longer mattered to me. I lost sleep, my health deteriorated, my temper was mostly at the tip of explosion. No compliments, no surrenders, could attack any time. I was mostly in defence mode and ready to pounce in arguments. I mostly played classic pieces…allegro. I had problem playing romantic slow pieces.

Praise the Lord I could still marry a guy! I consider myself extremely lucky to have such a considerate husband. I am having better sleep though it still takes time to learn to feel and relax every muscles. Nextly, I have to learn to slow down my pace as in walking, eating, talking, writing, reading, drinking and driving. I could get so impatient that I start to read from the ending of an article or magazine. I have to keep repeating to myself that I am nomore rushing to places and there are no more deadlines. It takes more than just time but alot of will power, discipline and practice.

Slow down and feel is my new motto. I counted and its almost 8months I did not work. I guess I have no more excuses for myself being so robotic. I am going to search into my souls for the artistic side of me again. Maybe I rusted abit but I am going to start doing what I love and have passion for. I am going to be bold and start making my dreams come true.

Other Charity Sites

Here are some sites related to charity which I got from a magazine, to whomever would like to find out more.

Monique Foundation LastWish
http://www.mariamonique.org

OneLife
http://www.onelife.org.sg

Nickelodeon’s The Big Help
http://www.nicksplat.com/thebighelp

Releasing children from poverty

Its heart wrenching to see the faces in these two sites: http://www.worldvision.com and http://www.compassion.com.au. There are so many in need, way outnumber Brunei’s population. I am touched to know that a lot of people are sponsoring kids from different parts of the world. I have made my first step to do so too. How grateful the child will be to know that there is this someone who cares for him/her. Each and every one of our care and contribution will be a BIG help to them.

Similarly, do you feel any impact after watching the catastrophe in The Day after Tomorrow? Feel any bit scary to see the unprecedented flood scenes in Brunei during these recent downpours? Well, I do :p. Quite a number of people have shared with me their mindsets that the degrading earth stems from the industrial waste from the “BIG” countries and that our tiny help will be of negligible contribution. BUT come to think about the child sponsorship programme, take each child as another tree whereby a small contribution can be a progress in saving the tree’s life. I started to reduce paper wastage yeeeaaarrss ago. I don’t know how many trees I’ve saved haha, but I just do what is within my ability. My next step is to bring a shopping bag with me hehe. Next Next step is to bring my own spoon and fork. Easy and small changes that WILL make a difference. Why don’t YOU try it too?